29.1

so far twenty nine has shown me

how hard I love
how difficult it is to love me
how the love i want to see
at times is not tangible

but i feel it
and i hold onto it
grip love with my hands to my chest
and breathe in, eyes closed
to remind myself i am alive
and i am loved

though i can’t feel it
i can’t hold onto it
i can’t see it
it is not tangible

i love hard
for the both of us

because

all the love i know
is nothing less
nothing simple

it’s me
all in